My blog is almost dead already !!!!
I'm having a hard time now ... well seriously tho i was tryin' to make myseft busy lately ... so i kept chillin' out with friends and did stuffs so that won't let myseft felt free and start thinkin' about all the craps !!!
People said that i'm crazy ... but wtf should i do ... i'm working still ... doing my duty still ... but i hate to be alone ... i hate to stay at home ... coz i can feel u here ... feel the emptyness is surrounding me !!! All i can do it to stop myseft from thinkin' and go to bed as early as possible everynite .... not like u know :-s 4 or 5am ... !!!
I don't know and i can't really understand myseft and what the fuck is wrong with me now !!! Sometimes i felt so empty life became so meaningless to me !!! like what the fuck is goin' on ... i'm losing track of time ... i can't caught up ... i'm breaking my very own plan for this month ... became useless ... blur ... sad... but i got no fucking choice...
Ppl said you have to think positive and u know like lookin' forward to the better things might [or might NOT] come in the future .... you have to turn everythin' upside down and think it in the gud way .... you can not drown urseft in sadness, depression ..... i'm trying my very best to do that now ... to save myseft ... to rescure me and pull me out of the darkness of shadow and sorrow .... o.0"
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... but fuck it ! Honestly !
I'm SAD ... i'm feeling EMPTY ... and i abso- fucking - lutedly need you by myside !!!
I know daz i didn't... u know cheerish and realised that all the time we had together was a precious time in our life ....
I MISS YOU SO BAD BABIE !!!
Every single day the first thing i think about when i wake up was
" i couldn't accept the fact that you left me here .... feeling like in the middle of NO WHERE .... nothing to do ... nowhere to go ...totally EMPTY "
Will i be trusted by you and Am i going to trust you ????
Would we last forever and would you be there for me everytimes?
Will we make it work?!??!?
Babie i need you .... ARHHHHHHHHHHHH