You ARE no longer the man that you used to be ... I'm scared whenever I think about you ... every thought makes me shake everything about you haunted me ! I scared this fairy tales is not going to come true ... I hate to watch myself falling but I know I'm ....
I hate everything about us that used to be so good but what's it now ... that makes it not the way it used to be ... broken trust ...I don't have any hope in this ... I'm falling but I couldn't tell anyone that I did ... I always wears that mask ... pretending that I'm living in a happy life ... but I know I'm not ... I just want to stop it ... STOPPPPP ITTT I'm scared I wanna run away ..... I don't want it noww ...
I don't want to be like this any longer ! Sick and fucking depressed of suffering the same old shit over and over again !!!!!!!!!!!!! All the hard time that you've been though to make me become a better person but you just burn it upppp burn everything upp in a min of thoughtless !!
I just want to hurt myself so bad so that I couldn't feel anything that harm me !!! I need peaceful heart I need a space to breath and really live and enjoy to be loved without any stress @.@ Huhuhuhuhuuhuhuuuhuuhuhuhuhu
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
What If :(
I can't believe
This is here, happening
Our situation isn't right
Get real, who you playing with?
I never thought he'd be like this
You were supose to be there by my side
When you say that you want me
I just don't believe it
Your always ready to give up
but never turn around
But what if i need you baby
would you even try to save me
or would you find some lame excuse
to never be true
What if i said i loved you
would you be the one to run to
or would you watch me walk away
without a fight
Im so sick of worrying
watcha gonna quit over anything
I could trip and you'd let go like that
And everything that we ever were
seems to fade but not the hurt
Cause you don't know the good things from the bad
When i say that i want you
you know that i mean it
and in my hour of weakness
there's still time to try
Everytime i speak
you try and stop me
cause every little thing i say is wrong
you say your noticing but you never see
this is who i really am
that you can't believe
makes me wanna know right now
if it's me you'll live without
or would you change your mind
What if ... I NEED YOU ?!?!
Sadness filled up my nights
I feel so hard to breath !
I cried many nights ...
I can't scream any louder
I'm tired ...
Do you know that ?!!?
How to end this ?!!
I wanna do it ...
I don't care ...
I can't take it anymore ...
I don't want to be like this anymore
The whole world is crashing down at my feet
and I can't help ... can't do nothing but stand there and watching it fall !
I HATE YOU !!!! :"(
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Morning office is not fresh plus boring, sooo sooo boring ! I hate to wake up early and not feeling the freshness at all !
No breakfast yet ... shy ! Life is so distasteful >.<
I don't know if your life is .... I hate mine now ...
I can't feel the old confidence of mine !
I can't feel any shit here !
I just hate being here right now !
I just wanna broke every single shit into half !
Fuck all up !!!
I HATE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know if I'm Right !?!
I'm fucking upset ! I don't know and have no fucking idea what's wrong with me ?! I'm in the mess ... feeling lost and so confused I'm sucked I'm helpless and hopeless I'm missing the old you It's so hard now ... I'm about rule my own life or about to giving up ... I'm gonna quit or got to move on ?!?! I don't know Lead me !!! I miss the old you :"( so so so so BAD ! :(( *crying*